Saturday, February 27, 2016

Saturday Verse: "The Nature of Gothic" - Margaret Atwood

THE NATURE OF GOTHIC
 
I show you a girl running at night
among trees that do not love her
and the shadows of many fathers 
without paths, without even
torn bread or white stones
under a moon that says nothing to her.
I mean it says: Nothing
There is a man nearby
who claims he is a lover
but smells of plunder.
How many times will he have to tell her
to kill herself before she does? 
It's no use to say
to this girl: You are well cared for.
Here is a safe room, here
is food and everything you need. 
She cannot see what you see.
The darkness washes towards her
like an avalanche. Like falling.
She would like to step forward into it
as if it were not a vacancy
but a destination,
leaving her body pulled off
and crumpled behind her like a sleeve. 
I am the old woman
found always in stories like this one,
who says, Go back, my dear. 
Back is into the cellar
where the worst is,
where the others are,
where you can see
what you would look like dead
and who wants it. 
Then you will be free
to choose. To make
your way.

                                          - Margaret Atwood

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Music for your Midweek: Lake Street Dive - "Call Off Your Dogs"

Presenting your mom's new favorite song! You thought it was going to be "Happy" forever? We got some new kids in town. Give 'em a listen:




Saturday, February 20, 2016

Saturday Verse: "Possible Activities" - Margaret Atwood

POSSIBLE ACTIVITIES
You could sit on your chair and pick over the language
as if it were a bowl of peas.
A lot of people do that.
It might be instructive.
You don't even need the chair,
you could juggle plates of air. 
You could poke sticks through the chain-link fence
at your brain, which you keep locked up in there,
which crouches and sulks like an old tortoise,
and glares out at you, sluggish and eyeless.
You could tease it that way,
make it blunder and think,
and emit a croaking sound
you could call truth.
A harmless activity,
sort of like knitting,
until you go too far with it
and they bring out the nooses and matches. 
Or you could do something else.
Something more sociable.
More group-oriented.
A lot of people do that too.
They like the crowds and the screaming,
they like the adrenalin. 
Hunker down. Get a blackout curtain.
Pretend you're not home.
Pretend you're deaf and dumb.
Look: pitchforks and torches!
Judging from old pictures,
things could get worse.

                                            - Margaret Atwood 

Friday, February 19, 2016

February Mix: Time moves both ways

Got your little Pick 'n' Mix for ya right here. They're all medicine flavored:


1. My Life Is Starting Over Again - Daniel Johnston



2. Hey Lover - Blake Mills



3. Down By The Water - The Drums



4. Complexion (A Zulu Love) - Kendrick Lamar



5. So Real - Jeff Buckley



6. Time, As A Symptom - Joanna Newsom



7. The Anchor Song - Björk



8. Affection - Cigarettes After Sex



9. Secrets Of The Stars - The Milk Carton Kids



10. Looking Out For You - Joy Again



11. Bros - Wolf Alice



12. Rider Of Days - Patty Griffin




NOTES:
1. Yes Daniel Johnston. Let's go.
3. I can't get over these guys. Watch this video that's kind of a big deal.
4. "If you don't see you beautiful in your complexion / It ain't complex to put it in context / Find the air beneath the kite / that's the context" Check out this great interview with Rhapsody who did a guest verse on "Complexion".
5. Breaking my heart a million times over.
6. She's coming to Salt Lake! Can't wait to see her.
9. They are also coming to Salt Lake! Sold out. But if you find a spare ticket you want to gift me, I wouldn't mind.
10. This week's cuties
12. Excited for his album. Hoping to take it out on a walk soon.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Music for your Midweek: Joy Again - "Looking Out for You"


Me, Lucia, and Anthony as cute kids in my
grandma Billie Ann's old house in Lancaster Drive.
circa 1990?


Listen to these cute kids.



Saturday, February 13, 2016

Saturday Verse: "Dutiful" - Margaret Atwood

DUTIFUL
How did I get so dutiful? Was I always that way?
Going around as a child with a small broom and dustpan,
sweeping up dirt I didn't make,
or out into the yard with a stunted rake,
weeding the gardens of others
—the dirt blew back, the weeds flourished, despite my efforts—
and all the while with a frown of disapproval
for other people's fecklessness, and my own slavery.
I didn't perform these duties willingly.
I wanted to be on the river, or dancing,
but something had me by the back of the neck.
That's me too, years later, a purple-eyed wreck,
because whatever had to be finished wasn't, and I stayed late,
grumpy as a snake, on too much coffee,
and further on still, those groups composed of mutterings
and scoldings, and the set-piece exhortation:
Somebody ought to do something! That was my hand shooting up. 
But I've resigned. I've ditched the grip of my echo.
I've decided to wear sunglasses, and a necklace
adorned with the gold word NO,
and eat flowers I didn't grow.
Still, why do I feel so responsible
for the wailing from shattered houses,
for birth defects and unjust wars,
and the soft, unbearable sadness
filtering down from distant starts?


                                                    - Margaret Atwood

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

To dust you shall return



     This year's Lent snuck up on me. I like to live by these old traditions, if only to give my life some structure when I feel a bit unsteady. The ash crosses that people receive on their foreheads is supposed to remind them of their own mortality. Grim, but important, I guess. Near tragic when you see babies with their heads marked. I did a bit a bit of searching this morning, and found these to be a goo primer. Also, this lovely editorial on Lent. A thought from it here:

Wisdom comes from the bare places because they force humility upon us. In these Lenten places, where life thrives on almost nothing, we can see clearly how large a shadow modern life and consumption cast upon the earth... learn the value of abstention and... consider how to let the bare places flourish, or even simply to exist. 

     From Arthur Brooks talks about practicing Lent as "rebellion for grownups". Writing in the New York Times, he says "[lent is] a personal declaration of independence. The objective is not to cause yourself damage, but to accept the pain and fear that are a natural part of life". Right up my alley. I'm big on remembering my own mortality.

      I considered giving up meat, but thought it would be too easy. Seconds later, I walked into the office break room where there were leftover sandwiches up for grabs. I hate passing up a free thing. I let myself have that sandwich, but I'm giving up meat for the next 46 days. It really is going to be hard because it means
1) Passing up on free food that has meat
2) No more three-pointer specials at Jazz Games
3) No cheeseburgers which is mostly my favorite food (S/O to Wendy's Cheeseburger Deluxe. It's only $1.29 you guys)
     And I just remembered I'm going to tea on friday (no ham crossoints) and lunch on Saturday (no cafe rio pork salad or New York H from Hires). So I guess this year's Lent option is an acceptable sacrifice. Maybe next year I'll try for the real deal.

Revisiting this album as a Lent soundtrack.
What does it matter?
We're all gonna die.

From here