So far, 30 feels great. I'm embracing all the growing pains and listen to this song on repeat so I can get through the Trump news cycles. It works! Still had time to make a v. special mix for your Valentines Day. For all the lover, former lovers, and future lovers out there. Get it.
1. Slow Motion - PHOX
2. Santa Fe - Beirut
3. Drug Money - Avante Black
4. Human Performance - Parquet Courts
5. There Is Nothing Left - The Drums
6. War is Over - Lowland Hum
7. Too Small For Eyes - Mothers
8. Soaker (Bonus Track) - Alex G
9. When I Am Alone - Natalie Prass & Among Savages
10. Ludivine - M83
11. Redbone - Childish Gambino
12. Your Love - Middle Kids
13. The Story - Brandi Carlile
14. Two Little Clouds - Andy Shauf
15. Cuccuruccu Paloma - Caetano Veloso
1. Thanks to Julia for this one.
2. I blame the inclusion of this track on the fact that I've been watching a lot of GIRLS the past couple weeks. It's embarrassing. Sorry I'm a bad feminist.
3. See above.
6. For all #resist activists who like some biblical allegories in their songs
8. Doesn't take much to make the saddest song
13. i got to see Brandi Carlile during the Sundance Film Festival while she played to a room of too-rich people and I cried during this song. Also I took a snapchat of her and she winked at me and I didn't even know!
14. Found Andy Shauf too late to see him at Sundance, but now too late to see him when he come back to Salt Lake in March. Hope I don't get tired of listening to this song 10 times every day before I go to the show.
Friday, February 10, 2017
Saturday, January 21, 2017
|The Banquet, Rene Magritte|
EXCEPTIONS AND MELANCHOLIES
had we been so thin and so clear
and arranged always
and in the same way going and listening
over the rooftops
to tin cans of flowers and strange
music. For an hour or more
I turned the same corner
and felt like a criminal farther and farther out to sea
among the racks of shoes and old clothes
but now looking
back I should never have
unpacked. A street
crowned with chestnut trees
ends at the sewer. You go to a theatre
and find yourself a house
outside the city
and walk the shore
forever. I don't have much
talent for poetry. When I see a wrecking ball
dangling from a crane I mean it
literally. I mean
I don't mean the world's fallen apart
or that the wrecking ball
symbolizes the eye my world-weary sister
couldn't know to turn away
from. The hospital's
exhausted. the little church is boarded up.
We leaned against the limestone
and liked the fact that tea
and the wildflowers
beneath the shad of trees gone shivering
have really livened up the cemetery
and that the tall grass and the garbage
and especially the piled-up
newspapers and the rooftop pool
fit right in among
these windowless buildings
as we are in the flesh again
and leading another life
- Ralph Angel
Friday, January 6, 2017
I've used up all my 2017 tears, and we're only 6 days in.
At least this mix isn't too bad. Filled with some new friends, but mostly old friends because I'm really lazy and need them more than ever.
1. Talkin' Like You (Two Tall Mountains) - Connie Converse
2. Blue Boss - Sampa the Great
3. The Moon and the Stars - John Mark Nelson
4. Spinning Away - Brian Eno & John Cale
5. The Bird - Anderson .Paak
6. Meet You In The Maze - James Blake
7. Better Man Than He - Sivu
8. Postdoc Blues - John K. Samson
9. Days of Lavender - Promises Ltd.
10. Bad Ideas - Saintseneca
11. Vamala - Champs
12. Ballad of Big Nothing - Julien Baker
13. Generation Why - Weyes Blood
14. Elegia - Jacazek
15. Reflecting Light - Sam Phillips
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
Monday, January 2, 2017
Last photo of the old year
I'm celebrating 2017 by having my first cold in years. It is a good omen. You know, purging all the mucus and muck of the last year out of my system by forcing myself to take a breather (despite the inversion plagued atmosphere). I struggled coming up with some solid new years resolutions and my friends were hesitant to just pick a resolution for me. But I finally settled on some pretty good ones to start out the year:
1. Eat what I want, whenever I want
A little over a year ago, I began eating this way, and I was the most healthy and happy with my body I had ever been. Eating this way turned food back into food, and not a punishment or a reward or a solace or anything other than food. Ice cream was just ice cream. Only eating when I wanted to also meant I made choices NOT to eat things just because they were placed before me, or because I was feeling bad, sad, happy...whatever. It was wonderful. I felt free. For the first time, I was happy with my body and in tune with my needs.
BUT, surprise stressors popped up in my life, and I slipped back into my own old ways of thinking (and eating). I'm anxious to get back into that way of living. Holla to Geneen Roth and her book "Women, Food and God" for teaching me how to do it.
2. No phone in my bed
For real, Sarah Andersen
For too long, I have begun and ended my day with social media check-ins. I'm not into making phones into the scape goat, and villainizing social media, but I do need to be more conscious about how I spend my time. This video about the unique challenges millennials face helped put my phone addiction into perspective. I'm guilty of leaving my phone on the table, scrolling through while I'm talking through friends, you name it. Having at least one space as a "no phone zone" will hopefully put me in a better headspace. Worst comes to worst, I can use Miranda July's technique to avoid distraction:
3. Let a smile be my default
I think being mentally, emotionally and spiritually open has to start something. If the only thing you can muster in the face of awkward social situations is a smile, that's better than nothing. I've always hated that cheesy way of thinking, but it it works, I'll take it. This past Sunday, I put that my facial expressions to the test, and it made a HUGE difference. I have to admit, it also felt unnatural and weird (I'm an RBF kind of girl), but I'm certain it will get better with practice. Yoga was helpful in helping me realize that the way we hold our face can affect our whole mood. It's a real thing, you guys.
Here's to a happier, healthier, and more present year for all of us. Cheers.
First photo of the new year