Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Music for your Midweek: Procol Harum - "Whiter Shade of Pale"

Learning this on the guitar this week, and it makes me cry every time. Every year I get older, I'm more and more of a baby:

And the version I grew up with:

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Feeling Spent for Lent

Got extra ambitious with Lent this year, and decided to go vegan. No consuming animal products. No meat, fish, chicken, dairy, eggs, pork, cheese, honey, ice cream... basically everything good. Day one started with all optimism, but ended with this for dinner:

It was even sadder than it looks. Ramen without the spices (whats the point?), olive oil, lemon juice, and avocado. Not exactly the pinnacle of health, but that's what happens when laziness and good intentions meet. Why am I subjecting myself to this? It can be summed up in a few tired bullet points that I kept re-iterating to friends and and coworkers but seemed less important by the minute GIVE ME SOME CHEESE:

  • Abstaining from animal products has been part of many Lenten traditions, specifically Eastern Orthodox, so there is a bit of a precedent
  • Going vegan does not only have potentially help your health, but benefits the environment as a whole ( a guy on Bumble told me that we have all these restrictions on pollution but we practically have no restrictions limiting how much we use animals for farming/food and they are one of our biggest polluters! Guys on Bumble say a lot of things though, so take that with a grain of salt)
  • It's a good practice in self-control (which I have had NONE of over the past year). I've been far too permissive, and challenges like this always encourage me to be more mindful.
  • Lent is meant to be a time of fasting, abstinence and sacrifice to help sanctify us. I'm basically giving up a lot of favorite things, and some unhealthy coping mechanisms along with it. It can really only be for my good, right?
  • I gained back 25 pounds I had previously lost since I started my new job last year, so it's time for some DRASTIC measures. See? It's not all holy.

Here's another article if you're like me and love getting swept up in these archaic rules. I'll be checking in daily (hopefully) to help keep me on track, so here goes!


on Wednesdays, I used to post a song I've been thinking about. I thought this ol' thing fit the bill just fine for today:

Friday, February 10, 2017

February Mix: Heart Broke

So far, 30 feels great. I'm embracing all the growing pains and listen to this song on repeat so I can get through the Trump news cycles. It works! Still had time to make a v. special mix for your Valentines Day. For all the lover, former lovers, and future lovers out there. Get it.

1. Slow Motion - PHOX

2. Santa Fe - Beirut

3. Drug Money - Avante Black

4. Human Performance - Parquet Courts

5. There Is Nothing Left - The Drums

6. War is Over - Lowland Hum

7. Too Small For Eyes - Mothers

8. Soaker (Bonus Track) - Alex G

9. When I Am Alone - Natalie Prass & Among Savages

10. Ludivine - M83

11. Redbone - Childish Gambino

12. Your Love - Middle Kids

13. The Story - Brandi Carlile

14. Two Little Clouds - Andy Shauf

15. Cuccuruccu Paloma - Caetano Veloso

1. Thanks to Julia for this one.
2. I blame the inclusion of this track on the fact that I've been watching a lot of GIRLS the past couple weeks. It's embarrassing. Sorry I'm a bad feminist.
3. See above.
6. For all #resist activists who like some biblical allegories in their songs
8. Doesn't take much to make the saddest song
13. i got to see Brandi Carlile during the Sundance Film Festival while she played to a room of too-rich people and I cried during this song. Also I took a snapchat of her and she winked at me and I didn't even know!
14. Found Andy Shauf too late to see him at Sundance, but now too late to see him when he come back to Salt Lake in March. Hope I don't get tired of listening to this song 10 times every day before I go to the show.

Saturday, January 21, 2017

Saturday Verse: "Exceptions and Melancholies" - Ralph Angel

The Banquet, Rene Magritte 

Never before
had we been so thin and so clear
and arranged always
and in the same way going and listening
over the rooftops
to tin cans of flowers and strange
music. For an hour or more
I turned the same corner
and felt like a criminal farther and farther out to sea
among the racks of shoes and old clothes
but now looking
back I should never have
unpacked. A street
crowned with chestnut trees
ends at the sewer. You go to a theatre
and find yourself a house
outside the city
and walk the shore
forever. I don't have much
talent for poetry. When I see a wrecking ball
dangling from a crane I mean it
literally. I mean
I don't mean the world's fallen apart
or that the wrecking ball
symbolizes the eye my world-weary sister
couldn't know to turn away
from. The hospital's
exhausted. the little church is boarded up.
We leaned against the limestone
and liked the fact that tea
sweetens gradually
and the wildflowers
beneath the shad of trees gone shivering
have really livened up the cemetery
and that the tall grass and the garbage
and especially the piled-up
newspapers and the rooftop pool
fit right in among
these windowless buildings
having gathered
as we are in the flesh again
and leading another life

                                       - Ralph Angel 

Friday, January 6, 2017

January Mix: Wrong Side Up-Right


I've used up all my 2017 tears, and we're only 6 days in.


At least this mix isn't too bad. Filled with some new friends, but mostly old friends because I'm really lazy and need them more than ever.

1. Talkin' Like You (Two Tall Mountains) - Connie Converse

2. Blue Boss - Sampa the Great

3. The Moon and the Stars - John Mark Nelson

4. Spinning Away - Brian Eno & John Cale

5. The Bird - Anderson .Paak

6. Meet You In The Maze - James Blake

7. Better Man Than He - Sivu

8. Postdoc Blues - John K. Samson

9. Days of Lavender - Promises Ltd.

10. Bad Ideas - Saintseneca

11. Vamala - Champs

12. Ballad of Big Nothing - Julien Baker

13. Generation Why - Weyes Blood

14. Elegia - Jacazek

15. Reflecting Light - Sam Phillips

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Music for your Midweek: Connie Converse - "Talkin' Like You (Two Tall Mountains)"


I was introduced to Connie Converse by Robin Banks, and what a great find! She is a real gem. Connie is of the same ilk of those special artists that have always hold a place in my heart. I can't wait to learn more about her. Sometimes I think disappearing at 50 doesn't sound like such a bad idea either. Here is my fave track by Connie, and the first one I heard:

Monday, January 2, 2017

Resolutions: Young and Sweet, Only (20)17

Last photo of the old year

I'm celebrating 2017 by having my first cold in years. It is a good omen. You know, purging all the mucus and muck of the last year out of my system by forcing myself to take a breather (despite the inversion plagued atmosphere). I struggled coming up with some solid new years resolutions and my friends were hesitant to just pick a resolution for me.  But I finally settled on some pretty good ones to start out the year:

1. Eat what I want, whenever I want

A little over a year ago, I began eating this way, and I was the most healthy and happy with my body I had ever been. Eating this way turned food back into food, and not a punishment or a reward or a solace or anything other than food. Ice cream was just ice cream. Only eating when I wanted to also meant I made choices NOT to eat things just because they were placed before me, or  because I was feeling bad, sad, happy...whatever. It was wonderful. I felt free. For the first time, I was happy with my body and in tune with my needs. 

BUT, surprise stressors popped up in my life,  and I slipped back into my own old ways of thinking (and eating). I'm anxious to get back into that way of living. Holla to Geneen Roth and her book "Women, Food and God" for teaching me how to do it. 

2. No phone in my bed

For real, Sarah Andersen

For too long, I have begun and ended my day with social media check-ins. I'm not into making phones into the scape goat, and villainizing social media, but I do need to be more conscious about how I spend my time. This video about the unique challenges millennials face helped put my phone addiction into perspective. I'm guilty of leaving my phone on the table, scrolling through while I'm talking through friends, you name it. Having at least one space as a "no phone zone" will hopefully put me in a better headspace. Worst comes to worst, I can use Miranda July's technique to avoid distraction: 

3. Let a smile be my default

I think being mentally, emotionally and spiritually open has to start something. If the only thing you can muster in the face of awkward social situations is a smile, that's better than nothing. I've always hated that cheesy way of thinking, but it it works, I'll take it. This past Sunday, I put that my facial expressions to the test, and it made a HUGE difference. I have to admit, it also felt unnatural and weird (I'm an RBF kind of girl), but I'm certain it will get better with practice. Yoga was helpful in helping me realize that the way we hold our face can affect our whole mood. It's a real thing, you guys. 

Here's to a happier, healthier, and more present year for all of us. Cheers.

First photo of the new year